best scene in a movie… ever =D

best scene in a movie… ever =D

Blowing out my eardrums

because its the only way I can think to begin to forget all of this

and this always happens.

I don’t know why I am to be tortured like this.

Everytime I believe them too

I think this one will be different.

But none of them are different.

They are all the same and I keep believing them,

for a while I stopped really caring about them 

and just used them. 

It was so much simpler

because if it didn’t work out there was no real attachment.

This time I let my heart open

Oh how fucking stupid I am. 

My heart should be forever closed, to never let any of them in again.

Its so hard though because I want to be loved

I want someone

who I am completely myself around

who holds me tightly and whispers I love you

who tries with all his might to cheer me up 

who makes me happy 

he was that person

or at least I thought

but who am I kidding

its never how it seems. 

Why couldn’t it be different this time?

When will it ever be different?

I deserve happiness and to be loved.

….don’t i?

Tori =)

Tori =)

This is something I cannot afford to forget. It can be so easy not to reach your full potential because you are afraid of whether or not you can reach it.

This is something I cannot afford to forget. It can be so easy not to reach your full potential because you are afraid of whether or not you can reach it.

the sad truth

the sad truth